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[Kitania]

Geez guys its been a while. Lets see...I joined here around the January 24th or so of...mmm 02? Yeah it had to be since I was a freshman in high school. Of course like most girls at that age, I joined because my best friend made me, and I was tired of lurking for almost 3 months.

So its been 6 years since then and a lot has changed. I've done a lot of maturing (at least I think I did) from when most of you guys knew me. And now... I'm about to graduate in May and go off to law school most likely at UT Austin.

Otherwise...I've experienced the whole range of things. I went pretty much crazy for a while, had an alcohol/drug problem for a bit. I went from being in the top 15 percent at my college to a lot lower. I was in a quite a few bad relationships...a few good. Lost a lot of friends, lost a sister (emotionally and legally), found one I hadn't heard from in 12 years. My 3rd sister had a daughter after coming out of rehab for the second time, shes been ever clean since (her daughter is 3 now!).

Now I spend most of my time with my boyfriend of almost a year (will be this weekend), playing video games, reading, watching anime. I am no longer an alcoholic. And I'm trying to be more responsible.

All in all I suppose all is good now. I'm in a stable place emotionally and physically. I say the love in my life has a lot to do with it. Anyways, in case you hadn't guessed, its Kitty.

[Ann]

welcome home :hug:

I'm sorry you went through such hard stuff and very glad you feel better about you and about your life. Law school sounds like an interesting challenge. Any particular field of law?

How are things with you and Jesus?

[Juliet]

KITTY!!!!!! *runs and gives Kitty a big hug*
I have so missed you. I apologize that I haven't kept up with you. Are you going to stick around?

[Kitania]

*hugs Jules* Hey you. I might be sticking around, but not posting a lot (dont wanna continue that 14K post count). No big deal about not keeping up with me :D I haven't been keeping up with anyone, too much stuff going on personally to try and do that too.

Hey Ann. I'm thinking Civil Rights or Environmental right now. Anyways, me and Jesus... we fell apart a long time ago. Depending on the day I feel more agnostic or atheist. Of course I'm the one to blame for that. I figured that I needed to get back on track physically and emotionally before touching spiritually. Trying to get at peace on that level.

[Ann]

Hey those sound like really good areas of law. I wish we had some good civil rights lawyers around here right now to take on a certain hospital that has just let - or made- a friend of ours die because he did not have $$ for care when I know good and well they get Hill Burton funds and that regularly assumes all Hispanics are illegal and treats them like way less than dirt. :redhotmad:

I can understand what you are saying about other things in life messing with your relationship with Jesus because I have resembled that remark. I pray you will come - not back but ahead - to something even more and greater in Him than what you had. And definately not religion but a real relationship. It seems to me that Jesus is less bothered by people who have real doubts and are willing to see real truth than by people who are fsking i9t and trying to look good to themselves and others. Does it seem that way to you too?

[Kitania]

Something like that happened to my dad's stepmother. And its for causes like that, that I want to work for. I want to really and try to help people not just take their money. Or at least put out work worth of the money that theyll pay. Lets just say being a Criminal Justice major has opened my eyes to the system and made me realize that its not so much about justice as I thought it would be.

I guess thats one of the things that was so disheartening. I spent 7 years in private parochial schools and a learned a lot about Jesus, but I didn't see the application of such faith in their lives. They talked the talk but didn't walk the walk I guess is how you can see it. The schools talked about a relationship but didn't instruct us on how to attain it. And it just seemed like it was some exclusive club that if there was no big revelation... I don't know how to explain it. I searched and searched and tried to find that peace and relationship, but...then the dark times hit and it got put down on the bottom of the to do list.

[Juliet]

I am so glad to see you back. It sounds like you are figuring things out.

Oh, I'll be answering that email later.

[Breni Sue]

I know I'm late as usual, but...

Heya Cath! I'm still here as you can tell. Just not as much as I used to be.

[Juliet]

But Bren we are glad to see you back and we missed you.

[Ann]

Bren back??? Did I miss something? I though she and her cat pics had been here all aong. Methinks the ice queen is melting :duck:

[Kitania]

:D omg its Breni